Being Stretched Again
This entry was posted on Thursday, April 26th, 2007
First and foremost, Project Mosaic is enlarging my tents- an opportunity for me to die to myself. Gets mo ako, it was, God gave me this privilege … alam mo yung shark… getting out of my comfort zone; after reaching this level, God has been stretching me again. It was an opportunity to stretch my faith. Ang ganda nga ng mga kanta recently, “Take Me Deeper,” a new endeavor for the church, for us. Going back to our foundation , naka-anchor ka to our roots. Bago na luma, yung roots.
Kasi di ba na-hospitalize ako ng January. End of last quarter of 2006, fatigued na ako. As in my energy was already spent… carry over to the first month of 2007. Parang ‘di na ako matatawid, umpisa pa lang ng taon pagod na.
God gave me a welcome break through my sickness. In January 2007, I had radiation swelling—effect of radiation surgery last 2005 which just manifested now. Other patients get it after six months, mine was delayed. I was bothered kasi it affected my work, my life, my speech, my thinking – tama yung input sa brain, pero output pag nagsasalita ako iba yung lumalabas… di ako naka-compute…. Mabagal pa yung brain processing, thinking, word retrieval, nag ja-jumble yung words ko. I needed a physical break sa work kaya welcome ‘yun.
When the burden was passed on by Coach Noel (NT), pumunta tayo duon sa bagong place, alam ko I would be part of Mosaic Ministries (MM) . I asked the Lord, “Papaano? What do You want me to do? What part can I take? “
Alam mo, the Lord provided for my hospitalization, angiogram. The Lord provided finances for the hospital…basta He provided for my hospitalization through my husband’s HMO. Tapos, new management kami sa company, leave without pay… e last week of January to first week of February, leadership Prayer and Fasting (P&F) pa naman.
While walking along the hospital corridor, my husband and I saw the full moon – yung buong-buo, malaki, yellow. Pinakitaan Nya lang ako ng full moon, ang ganda-ganda. May promise ang Lord na binigay. THIS IS THE YEAR .. Kahit sa leadership P&F and .. what I’m going through…THIS IS THE YEAR OF THE LORD’S FAVOR. The following day, full moon pa din.
Unexpected but yung new management namin sa work, they gave me financial support for my hospitalization. Di ko talaga expected. Nagulat ako. P50000 yung unang binagay ng company. Lord, P25000 ibibigay ko? Yung iba pang health expenses. Eh dini-deal ako ng Lord – P30000 anak. Lord, P30000? Nag-struggle ako. May impression ako na wala akong peace… Lord, P30000? Bakit di na lang P25000, Lord? P30000 anak.
Nung na-overcome ko na yung struggle ko, ang state ng heart ko “di naman akin yan eh, binigay Nya yan (yung Saphira & …nagbenta ng lupa tapos tinago nila sa Acts… tapos kineep nila) ni-remind lang ako, na sa Akin naman yan eh”. Nag-hyper faith naman ako, P40000 na lang o kahit lahat na… Anak, yan yung hinihingi ko sa iyo, di more than or less than. Yung P20000 na naiwan eksakto para sa surgeon. Sa old management na-ospital ako nuon, as in walang SSS o Philhealth. Ngayon 2nd pa lang with the new management, tinulungan ako. Lord, binigyan Mo ako ng pang-bigay sa MM.
From “Experiencing God”: God has already promised that He will give the land to His people provided that we will obey Him every step of the way, step by step.
Our eyes should be open to see the answers of God to our prayers, kahit years ago pa yung prayer. Lord, dream lang namin yan nuon, tapos in-answer Mo na pala.
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